The blog has been looking a little strange because I’ve been posting from my phone. It’s a great option, but there is not a lot of control (and a tiny keyboard) or ability to preview posts. Happy to be back posting from my computer!
Portland always messes me up. There are a few factors to why; it’s a great city and I enjoy the hustle and bustle of the culture, my friend completes me as if I’m seeing my long lost sister, I’m away from my family and therefore feel like a different person.
I’ve been feeling a little cooky lately, messing with my hair and getting my nose pierced (which I hated and have already taken it out). In Franklin, the culture is low key. I’ve been struggling with this new life of mine as a stay at home mom, which I’ve already mentioned a few times. I’m getting older and we’ve got some personal stuff we’re dealing with with Jason’s job which always freaks me out. I feel like maybe I’m acting out a bit, trying out some new things to rebel against this slow life we’ve created.
However, being home today with Lorelei I realized that I love my life. I love my kids and delight in them. I accept that they have become more important than my fashion choices. I accept that my life revolves around my house, getting dinner made, homework done (theirs and mine) and trips to wal-mart. I am enjoying it. I surrender (in a good way) to this slow paced life and growing older.
I was at the park on Tuesday and this young mom was asking me about my stroller. I have one of those tandem strollers with the option for the child to sit or stand. I realized in that conversation that I am a seasoned mama. I know I’ve been a mom a long time, I do have a ten year old, but I’m no longer clueless when it comes to the little things. I’m relaxed and confident in my parenting skills. This little tantrum of mine has allowed me to accept that my kids and my family are very important, worth putting the time and effort into them that I do. I not only have to do a good job I want to do a great job. I don’t have to stay home, I want to stay home and for the most part I enjoy it and take it seriously. I’m grateful for my hardworking husband who allows and encourages me to stay home with the kids.
I think there may be a stigma with staying home that our generation battles. We’re supposed to do it all; home, family, career and look good doing it. I am getting quite good at multi-tasking, but some things will take priority over others. I also have a sneaking suspicion that putting my family first will allow the other things to fall into place instead of the other way around. My fear that I would waste away is unfounded. I think some moms waste away when they stop paying attention and I have yet to do that. I am always looking for ways to improve, so this is just another way of doing that.
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