Falling Forward

H ooray! October is planned to be a fun and busy month! Jason is going camping (just an over-nighter), I’ll make a quick trip to Oregon (LONG OVERDUE!), and then we’ll all take a road trip to North Carolina to see Jason’s family and hopefully lovely Fall weather and scenery! Noah’s 7th Birthday and Halloween are in there too. I asked the kids what they would like to be for Halloween and Noah said a Clone Wars Stormtrooper and Nora wants to be Cinderella (big surprise lol). I asked Noah what he thought I should be and he thought for a moment and then answered, “Garfield, because he has a big belly”. lol Wouldn’t that be fun? I could carry around a half eaten plate of lasagna and a small brown teddy bear! Jason gave me a funny look when I asked him what he was going to be, like he didn’t dress up as a cowboy a couple years ago.

I’m starting to feel the baby move more and more. I’ll be 18 weeks tomorrow and am hoping the kicks will get stronger soon, so that when I put Jason’s hand on my belly there’s no question that, yes, there is a baby in there… We will find out whether it is a boy or a girl in October too! October 11th. I’m thinking boy even though I was so sick in the first trimester. The way I’m carrying and the cravings I have had (both scientific methods of proving gender lol) make me think boy. I really want a girl, but of course will love a little boy who I’m sure will be just like Jason, quiet and stubborn. We’ve barely talked about names, but I really like the name Henry Conner. Of course, I just looked up the meaning and Henry means “Ruler of the home”. Hmmm… But, Noah means peace and rest, so we can’t put that much stock in meanings. Once we find out I’ll be able to plan what we’ll do with making room for him (or her). Someone will be sharing a room eventually and we’ll have to figure out who, but he’ll still need a place to be changed and rocked for the time being. I’m sure he’ll be in our room at first.

The days are getting a little cooler and decisions more definite, the only things that keep changing is my moods! Well, at least that is what Jason says, I haven’t noticed. For now I feel cute and am starting to pad my wardrobe with fat-girl outfits and imagining how big I’m really going to get. I think you forget every time and wonder how amazingly your body can transform over a few short months. The kids are getting more excited although Nora can’t quite wrap her head around a time frame of when the baby will actually be here. Nothing is set in stone, but we are hoping to move out of this house in the beginning of next Summer, so I am dreaming of space and character (hey, a girl can dream can’t she?).

Consumed by thoughts of tiny toes and sweet baby smells
Planning and dreaming as only a mother can
Creating the home of memories yet unknown
Hoping that life will unfold as a soothing balm to hearts broken
Wishing that meaning were true and words could reveal
Always holding to testament claimed

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