et with Marianne this morning… Who is Marianne you might ask? She is my new midwife. :oD After agonizing over not loving Labor of Love and wondering if I should go to the midwives that go with you to the hospital although I wasn’t wanting a hospital birth I met a chick at Starbucks who lead me to her midwife who recommended Marianne.
I decided to meet with her first before deciding whether or not to switch and immediately liked her. She is short. She is so cute and hip and motherly in a good way! She’s done this for years and you can tell right away that she doesn’t judge and she’s very good at what she does. I’m wondering if it had to happen this way in order for us to have a home birth, because that was definitely not the first option. The more I’ve learned though, the more comfortable I have become with that option.
I think about how wonderful it will be to labor at home and not have to rush to the hospital and be strapped to the bed or to the birth center with stern midwives that I do not like. This will be a different experience for sure. Marianne will come to our house for appts and set up a birthing class (and maybe a sibling class too) for us. We’ll do all the same things that the birth center will do and she has all the same equipment and knowledge that Labor of Love has, so I feel comfortable (finally!) with our decision. Now I just have to get comfortable with our home. I will need to settle in to being here throughout this pregnancy and months afterwards, prepping the baby’s room and setting up our room, which seems to always be in a transitional stage. The first step will be finishing the closet. We’ll need to be creative so as not to spend hundreds of dollars in wood. We still need to finish painting, put up trim and rearrange a bit. I am 23 weeks, so we have around 17 weeks to accomplish this. I have 6 more weeks of school left and then I’ll be able to concentrate more on the “baby stuff”. These weeks will also be concentrating on learning to relax and listen to myself more. I know I can birth a baby of course, but I won’t be able to rely on an epidural to take the pain away. I can now get excited about delivering this baby without compromising my wants and needs. Ahh, relief!