This last year to me was more of a ride the wave kind of year, rather than a purposeful year. We had a baby, closed a business, moved to another state and settled in. North Carolina feels like our home now.
On our recent trip to Florida to pick up the kids I noticed that we were both very tense the entire time we were there except for when we were checking out our old house and talking to a sweet neighbor. I loved our old house (well, loved who we were as a family there), but the rest of Lakeland, not so much. There are some not-so-good memories there and I realized that Franklin is a peaceful town and I have learned to love the quietness of our new home. I don’t really go out much, unless it’s to the library or grocery shopping and I like it that way.
The last few months of 2011 were spent in deep thought most of the time without any real need to share what I was thinking. I have posted here sporadically and really only to update those left behind in Florida. It is no longer a space for ponderings or sharing what I’ve learned in order to help others who might be going through the same thing. I write here and post for documentation only. I hope to one day transfer my blog to a blurb book or something to keep forever.
I’ve been thinking a lot about 2012. What does this year hold for us? What do I want to do, what do I want to work on within myself? I’ve started a list, some practical and some spiritual things. One thing I know for sure is that I will not be posting here. This year for me will be spent quietly. I will be journaling instead, keeping my thoughts to myself until I can talk them out with close friends or family. For whatever reason, I feel my work here is done. I’ve grown through my divorce, new marriage and new baby and become a healthier person. I do not feel I have any more to offer right now. I feel that this year will be a quiet work within and I am looking forward to it.
Of course, I will still be posting snippets and pictures on facebook for fun, so you can alway catch me there. Who knows, maybe next year I will resurface, hopefully with much to share. Thank you for reading all these years, my friends. :o)